Over the last few weeks I’ve written a few homeschooling posts meant to inspire. Some tell how we do this, some why, some get to the nitty gritty of what we use, and others remind everyone they don’t have to do it all. Hummm, remember the (Biblical) phrase, ‘Pride goeth before a fall?’…well…I got the kids Iowa tests and G’s yearly Scottish Rite check up test yesterday.
How do I put this? My kids are, well…average on most things, below average on a few things and slightly above average on even fewer things.
I personally hate standardized testing and could list 10 reasons why I can discount all that it said, but, the thing is, it didn’t really tell me anything I don’t already know.
In the language arts department (even my dyslexic one) scored average to high, with the exception of spelling.
In science they were average to high.
In social studies (what does social studies even mean anyway?) they were high.
But in math, well let’s just say it was not pretty. For any of them.
Sigh, sadly this reflects me as the teacher. The areas they scored high? Areas I love and am good at. The areas they did not (spelling and math) are my areas of weakness.
I can read over and over all the posts I’ve written before that remind me why I am doing this. But when you see it all there on paper, well…it’s hard.
There is nothing like seeing you’re children’s intelligence broken down into black markings on a page. Maybe we should just not do any science, history, reading or writing, and just do spelling and math this year. I guess that would take some of the workload away from me.
The thing is, I know that my kids’ intelligence is higher than the sum of their test scores. But we work so hard. Homeschooling is so much a part of who we are as a family that you expect to see great things on the paper. When you put so much of yourself into something, when you work so hard, you expect to see reward. There should be clapping and balloons and parades! But instead there are lackluster test scores.
I know, I know. I am not doing this to impress anyone or even to create children that are smarter than you’re children. I am homeschooling because it is what GOD wants me to do. I know, I ask Him every year.
It should be okay that the Iowa test people are not impressed with my children. I just want them to get to Heaven one day and hear “Well done good and faithful servant.”
But today, I’m a bit disappointed that the Iowa people were unimpressed…